A new chapter?

Perhaps many factors are at play at this time. The vitamin D, I apparently was deficient in seems to now be returning to normal levels thanks to the weekly 50,000 units I am taking. This has given me a definite boost of energy.Combined with the epiphany I had tonight that my job sucks, they are idiots and I am wasting my time and talent. At what point does having a job, insurance, paid vacation etc not become enough for me. That time seems to have arrived. I should be content yet I am not. I feel as if I am settling for less when I can be capable of doing so much more. I'm not one of those drones programmed to follow a mindless set of actions day in day out. Listening to absolute jibberish and serving hideous food. YUK! someone rescue me please :)

The previous paragraph was written about 2 weeks ago,since that time I have been trying to figure out what I can do to change my situation. Contentment seems to be a hard thing for me. I am always looking for something, nothing wrong with that. I have come to the realization that if anything is going to change it is going to be me doing the changing. I realized this on New Years Eve, when I found out that the somewhat planned gathering of great minds to discuss a possible plan for the future fell apart. ( no offense to the parties in question, it arrived at the perfect moment).
Even though I continue to look for a better job, I am beginning to wonder does it even exist. That reminded me as to why we moved here, on a piece of property with so much potential. Food is my passion, yet at this time it is not furfilling my needs at the job I'm at, and so I've set out to find out what other passsion possess. It dawned on me yesterday while gazing at my hellebores seedlings, by golly that's it! Plants.....I get such a joy each morning as I look at the progress of their growth, searching for new seedlings emmerging from the soil. In addition I started thinking about all those snowdrops I planted and am looking forward to their awakening this Spring.
I've decided to cultivate this passion, see if I can multiply and specialize in just these 2 plants, in the hopes of perhaps creating a new career. So there it is, and for all those wondering what that comment I posted on FB meant.......this should explain it. I am reinvigored with energy and hope for the future!